failure....

[madmammyccp]

Hi ladies, this is my first time posting on here, and its a bit of a long one, sorry. We had a transfer on the 20th April, however this ended in a chemical pregnancy. Had lots (and LOTS) of positive tests, but never any progression. To say we were devastated would be an understatement. I already have children from previous relationships, so I thought we would have no issue...I am 45 and a fair bit older than my partner, and even though my last was born 3 years ago, when it did not happen we assumed it was my age. Turns out I have an AMH of 15 which isn't too bad - but he has low morphology. This was a huge shock to us both. So we decided to try donor eggs and ICSI. We scraped the money together and took the plunge - and it did not take. Now we are in the position of wanting to try again but of having no money to do so - and to be paying back a loan each month with nothing but pain to show for it. I feel like such a failure, like I cannot give my partner the child he so longs for - that we both do. Even if we could find the money some how, I don't know if emotionally I can do this again. I feel lost and angry, but mostly heartbroken

[JA-fnuk Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Sorry to read your post Natural to feel the way you do at the moment Keep talking to your partner and make sure have people around you for support . Take a look at our website fertilitynetworkuk.org - click menu and select Access to Support to find info about Regional & UK-Wide Support Groups

Look after yourself

Janet-Partner