I’m Trying

[Alaskablue]

Hello, I’m thankful I found this community that I can turn to when I’m not okay. I don’t feel alone now, knowing others are also feeling how I do, and they’re seeking guidance, or someone to listen. I’ve been depressed and anxious because my partner self harms, and I do my best to avoid the triggers for my partner, but I’m worried it won’t be enough. We’re doing everything healthy to help one another get better, but one slip from me saying something wrong, triggers, and I’m so anxious I won’t be able to stop my partner from a suicide. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. I’ve never been physically hurt by my partner, and I don’t fear my partner. We don’t drink, smoke, no drugs, and we are healthy emotionally 95% of the time. We try to speak with kindness to one another even when upset. We work full time, we exercise, we try. My partner was heavily abused as a child, this is where the triggers come from. We can’t afford therapy, and I would just appreciate any advice.

Thank you for your time to read this.

[gajh]

Hello and Welcome. I think it is wonderful that you are here sharing. I wonder if your partner would be willing to seek support themself? There are different communities here. There is one for Major Depressive Disorder. I am just thinking that if they were open to joining there, they could have their privacy there and you could have your privacy here, but you would both be able to get the support you both need. I am so glad that you don't feel alone now.

[Alaskablue in reply to gajh]

Thank you for your kind words and advice, I really appreciate it.

[BlueAgave]

Welcome. I hope you find comfort here.

[Alaskablue in reply to BlueAgave]

Thank you!

[sunshinefan]

Welcome. I am glad you are here and sharing.

[Alaskablue in reply to sunshinefan]

Thank you! It feels good to share in this community.

[catsrock]

Welcome!

[Alaskablue in reply to catsrock]

Thank you!