Update..I did what I had to.: So a month ago... - Heal My PTSD

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Update..I did what I had to.

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So a month ago next week, I left my job I had been at for almost three years due to bullying and harrassment management refused to do anything about. Some of you may recall me writing about it. When a company I interviewed with called with a job offer I instantly accepted and almost cried. After I got off the phone, the tears of happiness flowed. I was so happy to finally have someone see the potential in me. How hard I work, never calling in unless I am so sick I can't, and giving my all in everything I do. My supervisor got wind that I had put in my notice and instantly shot me a message. It said "I'm sorry." Little did he know, he had lost me months earlier. Sorry came too late. The day I left for Boston, I left a very angry person. I didn't care if I lived or died at that point. I felt like no one wanted me no one would care if I was six feet under anyway. I returned a changed person. I talked to no one and it ticked the people who were harassing me off royally. What my supervisor didn't know was the day he finally decided to do his job and help me was the day I applied somewhere else. That was the job that wanted me, the job that saw my potential. I sat down with HR in my new place of employment and she asked what had happened. She could sense the happiness and tears in my voice when she talked to me the very first time that day. I told her of the anxiety, depression, and not sleeping anymore. I did not tell her the thoughts running through my head. The suicidal thoughts, anger, or the snapping at people who could piss me off by just looking at me. I feel like in that almost months time, I am starting to finally heal. I am excited to finally not be under so much stress and I in the process of going back to school. Although my previous place of employment has expressed sadness over what happened(well some have) there have also been those who have not. That sickens me. I feel like I was nothing to them. I worked my ass off. Put up with the special treatment of the bosses kids who seemed to be able to do whatever they wanted because the boss would make everything go away. Glad to be away from that place and be able to focus on what I need. Happy my physical symptoms of intense stress are subsiding...Thank god for new beginnings.

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Tazzy2

So happy for you and long may the healing continue, this is in many ways the greatest step. Hope the supervisor feels regret for a long time and that, while it is too late for you, treats the next person as a human being

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I'm so happy to hear you're out of that terrible situation and able to move on to another opportunity. WAY TO GO!! You deserve all the best!

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