i have been struggling with hypervigilant mind ever since childhood and i am still struggling to express my emotional needs until now.
my parents came to my house just a day ago, they visited me because i got into a hospital and they still accompany me post hospitalization, but i somehow still chocked when i try to tell them i've been anxious for years. they probably already realized and they can only gives me courage, but i don't think its as simple as that. i know its just me being overly needy or whatever but i simply find it hard to keep on struggling alone, i feel so out of support and ready to give up anytime.
i hear my thought everyday telling me i have serious illness and i am incapable of getting through it and it feels draining, i cant be always just stay strong and sit with the uncomfortable feeling and sensation every day and night. i just want to feel better.